grapeaddict

TOTAL Junkfest!

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 06:05:36 GMT

Yuck! I've been doing really well and staying around 1800 calories a day, but tonight has been BAD. I was doing really well and was at a nice and satisfying 1800, but then went to put my dishes from my snack away. THEN saw the bowl of frosting my Mom had made for the cake for someone's birthday at her work. I almost resisted, but then dipped my finger in and after that....HORRIBLE! I've eaten SO MUCH and couldn't stop myself. I used to suffer pretty badly from binge eating disorder, but haven't been so bad lately. Tonight's not nearly as bad as what I've done sometimes in the past, but it's pretty high up there. I just don't want this to ruin any progress I've been making. Ugh! I know that if I keep trying to fight it, then I can still succeed, but that's not saying it won't set me back a little. Gotta move on.

I've already began to plan for tomorrow and making a menu for myself for the day. I want to eat a little lower than usual, but be sure to stay above the recommended 1200 calories. I want to be healthy about it. I may even get up to my 1800, but it won't hurt for me to eat a little less. I've been eating a few too many empty calories as it is. Tomorrow I'll go back to my normal healthy foods in proper portions and make my calories count.

There's nothing I can do to change what I've done, but I can make the next day great. And the day after that, and the next, etc. I'm not going to let this flow over to the next day. Not anymore. :) I've been working too hard to let this bring me down. Any advice, "been there" stories, or good links to any information/articles that may be good for me to read would be very much appreciated. Thanks for "listening". :)

-Sara Beth-

(x-posted to dietingsupport)

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 04:36:25 GMT

I'm doing pretty good. I haven't exercised yesterday, nor today, but have still managed to eat well. I'm not going to post my food from yesterday and today, but I've stayed at or below approximately 1,800 calories each day. That's what the different calculators/equations I've found online have said I should aim for, while exercising a few times a week, in order to lose an average of 2lbs per week. Who knows? I'm trying though, and putting healthy foods into my body, so that counts for something. I'm not going to weigh myself for a good long while because it has too much of an effect on me. I know what I need to do and can monitor my progress in other ways than that single number. While I'd like to see it lowering, I can just keep doing well and hope to see it at a good place when I do decide to weigh myself. I really want to focus on getting rid of the flab and becoming toned and more solid. Seeing small changes toward that is a great reward. So hopefully tonight I can get a good nights sleep and then have a kick-butt workout tomorrow! :)

-Sara Beth-

Saturday

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 06:15:13 GMT

I think I did pretty well today. I feel fine with it anyway. I do think I need to find more balance in my meals, but I'm still happy with how it is right now. Here it goes:

BREAKFAST: 1 cup of Kashi cereal with 1/2 cup of light soy milk, small apple, some crystal light

LUNCH: 5 almonds, light tofu, mixed fruit and berry smoothie, 4 slices of light bread, a watermelon ring pop

DINNER: can of mixed vegetables, apple, pear, 6 meatless meatballs with pizza sauce

SNACKS: 1 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch cereal with 1/2 cup of light soy milk, peanut butter sandwich on light wheat bread, a palm-ful of peanuts and raisins

ACTIVITY:

2 Mile Walk Away the Pounds DVD
2 Mile walk on the Treadmill
50 wall push-ups
60 calf raises
60 ab reps
1,000 punches
20 tricep dips
20 squat jumps
20 butt boosters
300 rifle spins per arm (with my old colorguard rifle)

I think I had a really good workout today. When I look back on my food it looks like I did okay there too. I just have to take it one day at a time and make each day as good as I can manage. I'm so ready for the summer.

-Sara Beth-

Another pretty good day!

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 03:44:09 GMT

So, I've done well again today. I did well with my eating and made myself do an exercise video. Here's how my day went:

BREAKFAST: whole wheat pancakes with light syrup, small apple, 1 cup of light orange juice

LUNCH: medium potato with BBQ sauce, 1 cup of pineapple tidbits, boca burger on light bun, 2 sugar free popsicles

DINNER: can of green beans, 1 cup of vegetable rice mixed with soy protein chicken style strips, small apple, 2 slices of light wheat bread

SNACK: 94% fat free kettle corn, 50 calories worth of hot cocoa

ACTIVITY: Sweatin' to the Oldies video, 60 Ab Reps

In terms of liquids I've had 84oz. of water, 2 diet sodas, and 2 glasses of crystal light.

I've also taken my vitamins, so I'm good there.

I know I did well, but feel kind of weird. I've heard people say sodium can make you feel sort of bloated and I think that could be part of it. Something just feels off. I'm glad to have two good days in a row under my belt. I'm going to be studying a lot and in the house this weekend, so need to make sure to not overeat. I'll try to be sure to exercise because I seem to do better with my eating on those days. :)

Have a wonderful day. Think healthy thoughts! :)

-Sara Beth-

It's been a good day today...

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 04:25:58 GMT

I've had a really great health day today. I needed one and will be sure to have another great one tomorrow. My body's still recovering from overdoing it last night, and I know after a couple of really good days, it will be better. I can't undo the damage, but I can move forward. Here's my food and such for today, as promised:

BREAKFAST: Hot Jasmine tea, 2 small apples

LUNCH: Can of Progresso Vegetable Soup, medium apple, plain whole wheat pita

SNACK: Berry/Mixed Fruit smoothie

DINNER: Morningstar Crumbles Sloppy Joe on 2 slices of light toast, can of green beans, pear, 12 almonds

SNACK: medium apple, 1 cup of Optium Slim cereal with 1/2 cup of light soy milk

ACTIVITY: 2 Mile Walk Away the Pounds DVD

I also took my multi-vitamin, vitamin E, and calcium chews. Once I run out of the E and the calcium chews, I'm going to just stick to the multi. I'm starting to get more calcium from my food with my smoothies and such and don't know why I'm taking the E. The doctor suggested it once, but didn't say why. I think the multi will do the job just fine for awhile.

Also, I ended the day with 84oz. of water, so all is good there.

I wasn't going to exercise today, but I'm SO GLAD I did. I had no reason not to, and I always feel great when I do. Tomorrow I'm going to exercise again and make it another great day. :)

-Sara Beth-

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 04:53:31 GMT

I haven't been doing the greatest the past few days. On my Birthday Sunday I ate quite a bit, but figured it'd be okay for the one day as long as I didn't let it carry over into the week. So yesterday and today I've done really well throughout the day, but then overate pretty badly at night. Tonight worse than yesterday. I had a really great workout yesterday, but not good enough to counteract all of the overeating. I've decided that beginning in the morning (the next time I'll be eating) I'm going to start writing everything down again. I'm not going to count calories or anything, but watch my portions. I eat healthy foods anyway, and know how much I need to eat/not eat to lose weight, but when I don't write it down, I go a little out of control. I need to hold myself accountable. I plan to write what I eat and any activity I do. Plus any thoughts, ideas, concerns I want to write about. I may start to post my food and activity here as well. We'll see, but I know for sure that writing things down has helped me in the past, so here's hoping it does it's job this time. :) I know it will. Right now I just feel SO FULL and GROSS. I hate when my stomach feels this full and tight. Tomorrow night I'll post my food and activity. I'll keep that in mind all day and it'll help keep me acountable. :) I've gotta get rid of this weight! :)

-Sara Beth-

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 02:40:49 GMT

I'm feeling really good. Yesterday I had a slightly larger snack at night than I maybe should have, but still ate healthy and am fine with how I did. There will be days when I eat more, and days I eat less, so it all balances out. Today I made some vegan french toast (eggless) and it was pretty good. I had that at noon and then wasn't able to eat until 8pm tonight after being in Saint Louis shooting for photography and then going to the grocery store. I was good though and still took time to prepare and eat a very healthy dinner rather than stuffing my face with the first thing I laid eyes on. Yay! I'm going to try to drink some more water yet tonight, for I've only had 32oz and then 32oz of diet mt. dew while out shooting. I usually have 96oz. of water alone. Tomorrow I'll shoot for at least 64oz, but try for 96oz. I'm so happy about the way I'm going about getting healthy. I feel in control, but not obsessed, as I was previously. AWESOME! :)

Time to drink some H20!

-Sara Beth-

The Ticker

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 23:00:51 GMT

Let's get this show on the road!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 22:48:37 GMT

I've decided to start a live-journal for the purpose of recording my weight-loss/health/fitness successes and struggles. I'm not exactly sure what kind of format I'll use to do so, but it's a start. :) I've been working on losing weight for awhile now (Beginning of January) and have went from 207lbs to my current weight of 200lbs. I'm a vegetarian and don't eat straight dairy or eggs. As of today, I'm trying to cut out more processed foods and trying to really eat even more healthily and a more vegan-like diet. I'd like to eventually get to about 145lbs, so that's 55 more lbs to go. I can do it! :) I'm not following any certain program anymore and am really just trying to make healthy choices, stop when I'm full, and exercise! :) Today is sort of a new beginning for me in that aspect and I'm really committing myself to sticking to those three simple things. Some others too, but those especially. Even if I don't lose weight very quickly, I would like to lose inches and have a more toned body. The weight-loss will come with time and I know the muscle will help burn more calories even when at rest, so I think it's pretty important for me to add in some more strength training and get those muscles nice and strong. So, here it goes! I'm doing great so far today and will continue to do so. It's too important not to. :)